FAITH

I look at the little pillow on my bed. Embroided in black is the word FAITH.
FAITH
How do you keep faith? How do you live in faith? Faith in what? Why have faith at all?

Sometimes I struggle to keep the faith, to keep believing that everything will work out fine. Like a movie you know, good defies evil, the damsel in distress gets saved, everyone is happy and in love and there is a rainbow in the sky.
Not to be cynical, but science taught me there must be rain first, or a storm, before a rainbow. And that storm is sometimes long and wild enough to knock your faith right over.
How do you keep believing and hoping and wishing to motivate yourself to keep believing and hoping and wishing?
How long are you supposed to convince yourself to hold on and have a little faith, things will get better? Well as they say, just a little bit longer I guess.

I have dwelt down the dark corridors of hopelessness often, and I have realised that what gets me out of there most, is seeing other people's faith; come to think of it.
Hearing stories of hope, how a friend leans on his faith for daily survival after his mother and father and the love of his life dies. Seeing how a family member conquers cancer with faith (and medicine and support from her family).
Yes that gives you a bit of hope and faith again. But when does it ever happens in your life? For real? That moment you have waited for all your life, when your payers are answered and you know everything is going to be ok, you are saved from all that is tearing you down.
Well maybe there will never be such a moment. Maybe it is a gradual process and while we are focussing on smaller miracles we are distracted from the bigger issues. And then one day, without realising how, it is not such a big deal anymore. Maybe the victory is to get through each day, with our faith in tact. Maybe we should get back to looking and really seeing the small miracles as well. I don't know.

No matter how rational we are, deep down there is always a voice that says, its going to be ok. Try and hear it, its faith.
For some it brings images or voices of a gospel choir singing.
5 letters that can have a huge impact on your life, or could just be a embroided on a pillow. In black.